The Difference in a Year

So maybe it's a few weeks over a year since Easter was about a month later than last year but, you know. Whatever.

Dress size on the left: 26w Dress size on the right: 18 ladies

Let's be real, here. To me, the body looks basically the same. I still struggle seeing any difference in my body size. It's still big. My face is where I see the most difference. If not for my face and the size difference in the dresses, I wouldn't really be able to tell I'd lost anything.

I've been fluctuating the same four pounds for a few months now. I'm thrilled that I'm not actually GAINING anything, but I'm frustrated with the lack of movement in a happy direction. I'm not entirely discouraged, but I see myself slipping into old habits more and more so I have to be a lot more vigilant.

One thing I've slacked on lately is the amount of water I've been drinking. Up until mid-January when I first realized I was hitting a plateau, I was very deliberate and thoughtful about the amount of water I was drinking. I had a schedule, even! I knew what containers held how many ounces and how many of those containers I needed to consume of water each day and when the easiest/best time was to drink. I still drink only water at meals, but those in between meal waters have decreased exponentially.  I've gotten into the  habit of drinking more coffee in between meals. Not good. I KNOW I need to get back to my water schedule but I'm having a hard time finding the motivation. I shouldn't NEED motivation, but I do.

Another thing I slacking on is counting/watching carbs. I'm way more lax in the amount of sugar I consume and I've slacked back into eating a few more simple starches than I had been previously. I've been baking more and maybe I don't eat as much of the finished product but I snack on cookie dough or icing while I'm baking and that's not good. Yesterday I had eaten so much sugary goodness I found myself actually craving a salty protein to balance the sweet. And tater tots. I've been eating way too many tater tots lately.

The fact of the matter is, I have let this plateau get way further in my head than I was admitting. I really need to pare things back to basics. Keep what's good in my habits (avocado, chia seeds, lean protein, veggies, etc) and ditch the excess sugar and carbs. Drink more water.  Just over all pay closer attention and be more intentional about what and how much I'm eating. AND, I've got to get out of my head about this stupid scale.

Yes, I want to weight below 200lbs before my yearly wellness check-up in June and yes I'm frustrated that I've been stuck for all of 2019. But I can't let the stupid scale derail or diminish how far I've come over the last 10 months. I just have to pay attention. Eat for my health and not for the scale and remember what this is all for...kicking pre-diabetes and STAYING diabetes free!