Taking a break

No, I'm not going to take a break from working on my health. I'm full steam ahead on that. I'm taking a break from blogging about it until the first of the year. My Christmas vacation starts next week and I figured now would be a good time to take a step back and get out of my head and try to get back to basics with why I'm working on this. Newsflash: I forgot what I was working for. I did exactly what I said in the start that I wasn't going to do. I made it all about losing weight. I realized that after yesterday's post when I ended up making it about how I look.

My goal in all this is to beat pre-diabetes. Losing weight is nice, but not the end game. I've got to get back to that mindset so that I don't get obsessed and lose my grip just because the scale isn't moving. I'm going to work at not even stepping on the scale again until after the first of the year. I need to lose that crutch and just be mindful in my eating and activities.

While blogging could be helpful, I feel like I've spiraled. It gives me too much room to go on and on about myself and the parts that aren't priority. Instead, I think what I need to do is go back to a food and activity journal. I still have the worksheets that I used back when I was doing that healthy workshop thing a couple months ago. I'm going to pull that out and keep a clean tracker. Perhaps set some small, realistic, goals with some non-food rewards as motivation.

So, if you don't see me around here (all two of you who are apparently keeping up with me. haha) I haven't jumped ship or burned any wagons. I'll be back with a report after the first of the year.

And, just so you know...I'm really thankful for the two or three of you who appear to be following along. It helps having this space to just empty my brain and cheer myself on or share the things it feels too vain or stupid to say out loud to the people in my day-to-day, face-to-face life.

So! Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays! Sending love to you and the world!

See ya next year!