Motivation

So, I'm not gonna lie, I've sort of lost a bit of momentum. The scale movement is extremely slow right now and I struggle to really see any changes. Without knowing what my A1C is, I don't even really have that as a pusher to stay motivated. I haven't slipped too far back into old habits. I really do think the changes I've made in my thinking have become new habits but there are a few old habits that keep popping up...namely, chocolate cravings. I was good for a long time in resisting or putting myself off as long as I could. This weekend, though, I found myself not even trying to resist. I didn't go nuts, by any means. I think I ate maybe four of the bite size Milky Ways that were left over from our office Christmas party. But still, I feel a little like I lost my way a bit this weekend. I wasn't in the happiest mindset when I ate them which is more telling than actually eating them. It goes back to my emotional eating habits. And that's definitely not something I want to go back to. I've come too far.

I can't even really blame it on the slow scale/measurement movement, though. I've been struggling with some life stuff and I let it get to more than I realized. I did take a step back and pep talk myself, though, so I think I'll be okay.

But since I am a visual person, though, I had a really nice boost to my motivation in photo form. I really have always hated full body photos of myself and to be honest, any photo that I couldn't control the angle of it. That's why I like selfie's so much!

I had a pleasant surprise when I opened Facebook just now, though. This past Friday, WBF and I were honored with a little "award" for our exceptional work ethics...well, she won and I got a "prize" because I nominated her for the "award." They posted a photo of it on their FB page and I gotta say, I was pleasantly shocked. Not because I'm beautiful by any means, but because I almost look "normal" in the photo! I think what helped me actually see a difference is seeing myself in context next to my friend who I've always considered "normal" sized. She's not thin but she's not big like I've always been. So to see myself next to her and how relatively close we are in size, it was just the boost I needed to renew my motivation and maybe go home and throw those chocolates in the freezer! lol

Speaking of the freezer, there's been a pint of vanilla ice cream in my freezer since September and I haven't even been tempted...so there's also that! haha

Anyway, here's the photo, with WBF's face covered to protect the "innocent." And I put innocent in quotes because if you knew her, you'd laugh at her being innocent. ;-)

It was casual "maroon" Friday, btw. We normally look slightly more professional.