Good News/Bad News

Good news first--I stepped on the scale this morning (unofficial but daily weigh-in) and I finally showed a three pound loss. I must have been carrying a bit of water the past couple of weeks and somehow lost it over the weekend.  I was muy impressed with myself this morning.

But then...

Of course I sabotaged myself.

I was supposed to have a work breakfast this morning at a local cafe so I skipped breakfast at home. I waited at the cafe for thirty minutes and my companions didn't show. One phone call later I was out the door and on my way to the office. The breakfast was cancelled and nobody had bothered to let me know. (A rant for another day.)

I didn't have time to eat there or grab anything for breakfast anywhere else so I took my coffee with me and raced to the office. Around 9am I took a break and ate a 90 calorie cheese stick. If I'd just kept on the good wagon from there on (eaten my Special K bar), I'd be doing great today. But by 12:30 I'd bypassed hungry and was straight-up  hawngry. Maybe even a little hangry. (this is why I could never be anorexic--hunger pains make me moody and anxious)

So of course I sprinted to the nearest Panda Express and instead of virtuously getting the bowl (one entree/one side) I got the plate (two entrees, one side) and I ate the whoooooole thing. Well, actually I did leave a forkful of noodles on the plate.

But see? This is what I do? I get a little hungry and I got overboard and eat unhealthy things in unnecessary quantities. I only wish I knew why. It isn't as though I ever went hungry as a child. I mean, my family was poor but we always ate well. And okay, so I was a little angry about the whole breakfast thing. So maybe I was eating my emotions?

Errggh.

Anyway, I've got a special K bar for supper tonight and I plan on drinking a TON of water to get all the Panda sodium out of my system as quickly as possible. So maybe I haven't completely outdone myself. *sigh*

Tomorrow, however, is going to be an intentional splurge. A colleague is leaving and we're having a fairwell dinner at a swanky restaurant tomorrow night. I fully intend to get a thick juicy steak and eat the whole thing. I haven't had a steak in about a year or more. And this place happens to have the absolute best in town. Hopefully I can eat small the rest of the day tomorrow. Limit my stress. Be happy in the antcipation to help stave off the temptation to splurge any further.

Here's to hoping!