Bleh Day

I didn't sleep great last night which means I skipped my morning work out. *deep sigh* I woke up at 2:30 am with running thoughts and ended up listening to a podcast in hopes of it lulling me to sleep. I think it was probably close to 4am when I finally drifted off so needless to say, when the alarm went off at 4:40, I hit the snooze a few time.

I still feel a little drugged and groggy from lack of restful sleep and my energy level is low. I can tell it's going to be a rough day and I'm going to have to really push myself to get up and do all the things.

And of course feeling low energy and guilty from skipping my weight work out this morning, I'm also in a bad head space. I'm feeling fat and a little hopeless as though this is it. This is as far as I'll ever go because it's as far as I've ever gone. I know it's just all in my head. I can do this. I WILL do this. I have to if for no other reason than to prove to myself that I can. I just have to stay out of my dark headspace today and don't let it derail me by pushing me to eat my feelings.
I've got my Kind Bar to eat in a few minutes and I've got my cup ready to fill with water. If it's not unbearably hot or raining outside, I may push myself to go make a loop around the building.

Whatever I do, I've just got to make sure this bleh day doesn't turn into a fail day.