Good news/Bad news

Good news is, I'm down another pound for a total of 7lbs. Woot woot.

Bad news is, I made some baaaaaad decisions today at lunch and I feel gross right now. I also feel like my blood glucose may be elevated. Headachy, sluggish, my chest feels a little tight. All classic symptoms of high blood glucose. Ugh.

I've made good choices the past four days and then went to lunch with friends today to a place with a good blue plate (meat and 2 sides) and they have the best mac and cheese. (carbs) and I ate the roll that came with it. (more carbs) and I got a coke because I'm a creature of habit (even more carbs) and THEN we went and got free ice cream (carbs exploding my body into a million pieces) and I have so many regrets. IT'S SO DARN EASY TO FALL INTO OLD HABITS. And for all the smart choices I've made this week, this one day of bad choices doesn't just affect weight loss, it's hard on my actual HEALTH. As in, it's pushing me one step closer to full blown diabetes.

I have GOT to do better. Eat the mac and cheese but leave off the roll and the coke. Or if you must drink the coke, eat a salad with it. Coke is still a poor health choice, but on it's own, isn't detrimental to my health on a rare occasion. At least that's what I tell myself when I fall off that particular wagon. (A handful of times...not proud of it.)

I'm still so full and bloated right now, though, that at least I won't be tempted to eat anything for supper that might further spiral my health into the gutter.

OH! But I'm going to T-town to spend the day with Sis1 Sunday and she is fixing lunch...spaghetti, cheese bread, and salad. UGH. How do I say no when my sister is lovingly preparing lunch for me, my aunt, and my cousin? Or can I ask her to swap her menu? I haven't told either of my sisters about the pre-diabetes. Don't really want to. They'll tell my mother.

Why does something so basic as eating  have to be so hard?

I have to keep going. Learn from my mistakes and pray they aren't my undoing. Accept that there is a learning curve to changing your habits and learning a new food lifestyle. I am learning what does and doesn't elevate my blood glucose, though. So that's something, right?