Scaling Back

So I put my scale up the weekend. Could be a good idea, could be a bad idea. But I think either way, all it was doing was messing with my head and taunting me.  I mean, seriously. How exactly does a body gain 4lbs overnight?

Water weight, etc. I know. I have been around this block enough to know that but try telling that to the part of me that is just ACHING for some positive progress. That part of me just dies every time the scale shows progress one day and then yanks it back the very next.

That's what happened to me last week. I had lost an actual pound and kept it off and then suddenly Thursday morning when I weighed (unofficially) I was three more pounds down. Intellectually I knew it wasn't a permanent loss but there was that aching part of me that rejoiced--dancing a jig, tossing confetti and the whole nine yards. But Friday morning on the "official" weigh day...not only was the scale back up the three pounds it said I lost Thursday but it'd regained the one pound I HAD actually lost. Bringing me almost exactly right back to my starting point.

Have you any idea how FRUSTRATING that is?!

And I know, the scale is not the be all, end all of tracking weight loss but it is a big part of it. And I also know that I was setting myself up for disappointment by having an official weigh day (meaning I recorded it for comparison later) and yet still weighing myself every day. I do the every day weigh to keep myself in check but this time it was driving me crazy that on the days when I recorded my weight, the scale always seemed to be UP.

So. I'm taking a step back, putting the scale up and focusing on what I'm putting into my body. So far today that included Cheerios and water (breakfast), a chocolate chip bagel with low fat cream cheese and green tea (morning "snack") and a Slimfast brownie flavored meal bar  and water (lunch). Supper tonight is either going to be a turkey smocked sausage link and mushrooms, a mushroom cheddar omelet or a turkey burger and cabbage stir-fry. I haven't made up my mind yet.

The only thing I should have done without today is the bagel and cream cheese. I knew it was a bad idea when I got it but my willpower is at zero today. Or it was this morning, anyway. This morning I was tired and stressed and in need of some comfort. I just wish I could find some comfort that didn't cost me so many calories!